I have decided to cancel my cross country bike ride. I'm sorry for any disappointment it might have caused. I was looking forward to it. I've trained three months for it. I bought almost all of the equipment I would have needed. And I have no doubt I could do it but I am trying to work out a relationship with someone I love very much. Now would not be a good time to leave for two months because you can't work out a relationship unless you are there with the person. I was riding my bike on Saturday morning and not getting very excited about the trip and realized why. I want a life with this person and for me the bike ride doesn't come close to her. I apologize for any inconvenience I've caused to anyone. I felt a little foolish for talking it up so much and then cancelling it but my daughter gave me some good advice. She said dad it doesn't really affect anyone but you. :-) She's right. I would also like to apologize to GEGR who developed the website for me for any inconvenience to them.

Training for this trip has helped me figure a lot of things out. I have spent so many hours on the bike with just my thoughts as company. I’ve never really been someone to reflect so much about life or on myself. It feels good to know that I know a little more about myself and what kind of person I’ve become. I understand that I can never make up for some things I’ve done in the past. I can only work towards being a better person. I like myself for the first time in a long time. I’m allowing myself to be happy.

Time will tell if things work out. Either way life goes on and we all have to make the best of it.